It's the day before the real diet begins and I just got to enjoy a Panera Bread panini and a mango smoothie with some wonderful family. I'm excited and a little apprehensive about tomorrow. I want to act like I'm strong and I can do this but my self doubt has taken hold of my mind. But after tragedy struck in our family today and I felt the urge to calm myself with something sweet I got a little scared about my ability to do this. But I decided that any feeling I have is not as strong as my desire to be a better healthier Rachel. It starts tomorrow and I WILL kick ass!